In the darkness I will meet my creators
And they will all agree that I’m a suffacator
15 (the time I was most content with life): Probably any summer I’ve been working with camp. Being surrounded by love like that makes my outlook on life really positive, which makes me really positive.
31 (what I think death is like): Cold. Probably the only time we’ll experience true loneliness. Scary af. Maybe a quick moment of serenity? I’m not sure. Writing about it here hasn’t sent me into panic mode, though, so I’m obviously getting better at talking about it. Death is scary. The unknown is scary.
8 (the thing I am most proud of): I’d have to say the awards I’ve won at school, just because they’re physical representations of my hard work. Diligence awards at my summer camp, an award for dedication to art at my school this past year.
36 (my guilty pleasures): Nothing is guilty!!! But the things that I’m like “gurl y” when I think about how I like them are reality TV shows based around fashun (Rachel Zoe Project, The City omg), animated shows that aired on Cartoon Network circa 2005? (FOSTER’S, 6teen), and then basically all food
I’m glad they’re the ones on the other side of the glass
Who knows what my spirit is worth in cold hard cash
I start working with a group of fantastic people again in a few weeks. I’m off to Cali in a couple weeks. I’m off to New York tomorrow.
I’m so excited for everything.
Today in science we learned that you can never gain cold, you can only have an absence of heat; and it made me think that maybe hatred doesn’t exist, and there’s only an absence of love.
this is the realist shit I’ve ever read
i said damn six times after seeing this
also my unextinguished crush was nothing but lit a flame today
why does he have to be so perfect and nice and uGH
my mother always shocks me by being so understanding and open at the most random times. giving me the okay to go to things I never thought she’d be okay with, being very forgiving in that I think I lost my debit card. so nice. such relief.